How did I get to happy hour? I was looking for Yoga!

so it turns out I'm really good at partying and celebrating.  Drinking and eating out come easy to me.  The lessening or their presence in my life... that's the struggle. Se we went to happy hour.  I had a game plan... 1 drink + 1 appetizer, hang out with friends, re-cooperate from a crazy class at the gym.  Fail!  2 drinks + my appetizer + my boyfriends... not so bad right?  Until my best friend decides she needs Mexican food.  She NEEDs is.  I said I'd go with her for moral support.  what a lie!  The funniest party was that was my true intention, to just go and hang out with her!  So we went to my favorite Mexican place which started with just chips and salsa... the salsa is spicy so I need pepsi!  Before I knew it a huge spread of fajitas were spread across the table! I went to bed loathing myself.

This morning I woke up, did some stuff for class, was still sore from my workout a few days ago.  I felt guilty from last night so I just munched on a handful of special K.  Not good before a 2 hour meeting especially when accompanied by a huge thing of coffee.  I was famished  I could literally feel the caffeine digesting my cereal.  I was going crazy 15 minutes into the meeting.  My stomach turning and churning.  To top it off I'm pmsing.  What was said at the meeting was masked by visions of chicken fingers, fries, and you guessed it! Pepsi!

My boyfriend picked me up after my meeting and we headed straight to chic-a-filet Yum!  We got home to find a package slip in the mail and headed to the apartments main office to pick it up.  Ughhhh a late Christmas present from Hawaii.  4 boxes of Hawaiian Chocolate!  I think I ate a whole box.  Damn you period and chocolate covered mac nuts!

So now I sit here... feeling myself expand.. expand... when will it stop?  I feel like the blueberry girl from willy wonka!  Gross!  To top it off.  I'm making a powerpoint for my class talking about the health benefits of yoga.

I got to thinking I LOVE yoga.  I feel so great after doing it, not like a German sausage!  So why am i stuffing my face instead of doing something I know will make me feel great.  More self hate!

Where's the Love?  I think I'm craving yoga.  Is that possible?

better mornings: Relearning

better mornings: Relearning: My entire life I've heard my mom say things like isn't it great to sleep in? Isn't it nice to just lay in bed and enjoy? Yes... it was gre...

Relearning

My entire life I've heard my mom say things like isn't it great to sleep in?  Isn't it nice to just lay in bed and enjoy?  Yes... it was great for her, but she was working many many hours a day and didn't get to have a full night sleep ofter.  If I don't need to be up to go somewhere I tend to sleep till 11.  Even if I wake up at 7am feeling refreshed.  I see the clock... It's 7 am ...I should enjoy my bed a bit longer and head back to sleep so effortlessly. I wake a few hours feeling like crap.  Over sleeping is just as bad as under sleeping.  You get tired and lazy and crave sleep, even though you had plenty.  I'm setting a short term goal for this week to wake up at 8:15 and at least get out of bed, have a glass of water, and brush my teeth.  If I'm still feeling exhausted  I can go back to sleep.  But I need to work on this!  Oh yes, my new mantra will be... Isn't it a great morning!  Isn't it nice to enjoy the day? 

Moderation

Moderation is a work I need in my vocabulary... I am now aware of this.  I decide to turn my life around and go vegan... If feels amazing!  I feel great eating solely veggies.  My body starts changed. It works great for a few days and then I binge on cookies.  I don't have a beer for a week or 2 and then I have one drink... than 2.. than wake up to the worst hang over ever.  Why do I see the world as so black and white?  Either I'm a vegan today or a fat slob binging on wings and beer?  Now that I'm aware of this how do I work on moderation? 

Week 1 complete!!!

Whooo! I made it though one entire week! In retrospect it wasn't really bad.  I've felt great working out have actually found a way to make spinach yummy! drenched in lime juice!  So can I get a drum roll please.... I lost 5 pounds!!!! In one week! Pretty sure it's due to my body being in shock! I think most of the weight is from water retention loss, but still seeing the scale move so much, well like 2 kg's.  Is major!  I am ready to tackle the next week! Once again, waste line you are going down!

why do mornings still suck?

I eyes creeped open this morning.  My head was already pounding.  Ughhh it's morning! not again:( It feels like I drank a fifth of cheap vodka last night.  Why does my mouth feel like sandpaper?  Quick scan of last night, are chicken and peppers for dinner, went to the gym for yoga and sauna, drank 2 bottles of water, took a shower, went to bed.  No remembrance of drinking.  So why do I feel so hung over?  I feel like all I do is drink water! Maybe my kidneys are still getting used to the new water flow?  I'm not sure, whatever it is, my mornings still suck!  Hopefully tomorrow will be better!

Where do the healthy ones hangout?

To avoid falling into old traps I wanted to try something different.  After some pondering of what is a healthy activities that I like to do.  I thought of swimming or surfing from my days in Hawaii or snowboarding from my trips to Colorado.  These are just not logical for Houston.   After some more contemplation it dawned on me that all I really do in Houston is sit in front of the computer reading, and enjoy the amazing food scene here.  This is a recipe for disaster!  What could I throw in the mix to spice up life for this new me?  Hrmm? I always like buying random things at a farmers market on my travels/ trying the new foods.  Maybe I should find one in Houston.  So I talked my boyfriend into going!  I had such high hopes, fresh made multi grain bread, all kinds of hippie home made foods, fruits and veggies galore! But this was not the case :( I think every stand had lettuce and tomatoes.  Really?  That's hardly worth getting out of bed for.  Don't get me wrong, I love tomatoes, but my fridge is full of them.   The food stands were all Mexican, which is delicious, but I think Mexican food played a major role in getting me into this mess!  I tried to escape the smell of the enchiladas or tamales, whatever they were.  My escape route had one major flaw... it drove me right into the arms of an organic chocolate venue.  With one glance Mr. Chocolate knew he had me.  He offered me a sliver of dark chocolate flavored with coffee.  Are you kidding me dark chocolate and coffee? It's like me made it especially for me!  My brain was screaming NOOOO but of course I accepted the offer with a smile.  Hands down, it was the best chocolate I've every had, and I'm  a chocolate snob!  It beat Godiva, any chocolate I had in Switzerland or Germany.  We bought 3 boxes.  ughhh so in my tries for other healthy activities I ended up with 3 boxes of chocolate.   New ideas are needed!