Moderation

Moderation is a work I need in my vocabulary... I am now aware of this.  I decide to turn my life around and go vegan... If feels amazing!  I feel great eating solely veggies.  My body starts changed. It works great for a few days and then I binge on cookies.  I don't have a beer for a week or 2 and then I have one drink... than 2.. than wake up to the worst hang over ever.  Why do I see the world as so black and white?  Either I'm a vegan today or a fat slob binging on wings and beer?  Now that I'm aware of this how do I work on moderation? 

Week 1 complete!!!

Whooo! I made it though one entire week! In retrospect it wasn't really bad.  I've felt great working out have actually found a way to make spinach yummy! drenched in lime juice!  So can I get a drum roll please.... I lost 5 pounds!!!! In one week! Pretty sure it's due to my body being in shock! I think most of the weight is from water retention loss, but still seeing the scale move so much, well like 2 kg's.  Is major!  I am ready to tackle the next week! Once again, waste line you are going down!

why do mornings still suck?

I eyes creeped open this morning.  My head was already pounding.  Ughhh it's morning! not again:( It feels like I drank a fifth of cheap vodka last night.  Why does my mouth feel like sandpaper?  Quick scan of last night, are chicken and peppers for dinner, went to the gym for yoga and sauna, drank 2 bottles of water, took a shower, went to bed.  No remembrance of drinking.  So why do I feel so hung over?  I feel like all I do is drink water! Maybe my kidneys are still getting used to the new water flow?  I'm not sure, whatever it is, my mornings still suck!  Hopefully tomorrow will be better!

Where do the healthy ones hangout?

To avoid falling into old traps I wanted to try something different.  After some pondering of what is a healthy activities that I like to do.  I thought of swimming or surfing from my days in Hawaii or snowboarding from my trips to Colorado.  These are just not logical for Houston.   After some more contemplation it dawned on me that all I really do in Houston is sit in front of the computer reading, and enjoy the amazing food scene here.  This is a recipe for disaster!  What could I throw in the mix to spice up life for this new me?  Hrmm? I always like buying random things at a farmers market on my travels/ trying the new foods.  Maybe I should find one in Houston.  So I talked my boyfriend into going!  I had such high hopes, fresh made multi grain bread, all kinds of hippie home made foods, fruits and veggies galore! But this was not the case :( I think every stand had lettuce and tomatoes.  Really?  That's hardly worth getting out of bed for.  Don't get me wrong, I love tomatoes, but my fridge is full of them.   The food stands were all Mexican, which is delicious, but I think Mexican food played a major role in getting me into this mess!  I tried to escape the smell of the enchiladas or tamales, whatever they were.  My escape route had one major flaw... it drove me right into the arms of an organic chocolate venue.  With one glance Mr. Chocolate knew he had me.  He offered me a sliver of dark chocolate flavored with coffee.  Are you kidding me dark chocolate and coffee? It's like me made it especially for me!  My brain was screaming NOOOO but of course I accepted the offer with a smile.  Hands down, it was the best chocolate I've every had, and I'm  a chocolate snob!  It beat Godiva, any chocolate I had in Switzerland or Germany.  We bought 3 boxes.  ughhh so in my tries for other healthy activities I ended up with 3 boxes of chocolate.   New ideas are needed!

Unforeseen Hurdles

So I thought my social support system would be just that... support! Once again, wrong!

My best friend is going through some issues, totaled car, redrafting her thesis, and we didn't see each other for like 5 days so we needed to catch up! So I went car shopping and it just wasn't enough time to catch up so I suggested going to the gym and hitting the treadmill, but she really needed a beer.  I tried so hard to ignore the beckoning call of my foamy golden love, but my efforts were in vein, before I knew it a magical liter was at home in my hand.  Day 1... epic fail!


Day 2 was going great, thinking people were on my side... that is at least until I went to bed.  My boyfriend insisted on playing with his i pad filling the room with an eerie blue glow and random taps similar to Chinese water torture.  I convinced him to put it down, just when I thought we could finally sleep he decides he isn't tired and steals my pillow.  After about an hour of pure torture I finally fell asleep, but awoke more stressed out then when I fell asleep.  I'm chalking that up to my pre-slumber annoyance.

Day 3 once again awoke annoyed, but my to do list was pretty long so I got out of bed and started to tackle it, the day was going pretty healthy until the phone rang... It was an invite to and Indian food buffet...  my arch nemesis! oh the deliciousness of curry, words I can't spell, and naan!  All the spicy goodness I so love washed down with a gallon of Pepsi!  I wasn't even hungry, but the mere thought and my stomach was over-joyed to make room.  I realized what was happening and dishearteningly rejected the invitation.  Once the phone was hung up I realized what I did! Whooooo! I had will power, even for a brief moment.  I had an apple for a snack and was happy!  My boyfriend had to run an errand so I went with him.  Just when I thought I could handle being with people he pulled into a bakery he's been wanting to try.  Omg it smelt heavenly! A wonderful sweet aroma greeted us in the parking lot and hurried us inside.  I resisted the cupcakes and the cookies even though they were singing siren  songs.  I  was staying out of it, like the cowardly lion watching a fight until my sweetest cord was struck.  Death by Chocolate.  Chocolate layered upon chocolate layered upon chocolate... this was heaven and my boyfriend showed his red devil horns and layed the temptation on as thick as the cupcake was frosted.  I caved. Once again my so called support system was my downfall... I need to devise a better plan to survive these my adipose and poor sleep habbit supporters!

realtiy part 2

Ouch! Zumba looks like a Latin party on TV!  Thought it would be a great class full of fun, the hour would just fly by! Wrong! Some how I managed to not do a single move right and the instructor kept coming over to me in his skin tight pants, (material unknown but it sure hugged every curve!) and showing me how to move my hips! So embarrassing! I guess all those years on cheerleading ingrained tight movement and loose moves just feel so wrong.  Flashbacks to drill Sargent coaches ... loose moves drop down and give me 20! So despite the instructors best efforts I looked like a fool for an hour (after the first 10 minutes I stopped caring about the hip swings and just had fun with it though!) and  managed to hurt myself! I did everything I could I warmed up for 15 minutes, stretched, cooled down by walking home, and relaxed in an Epson salt bath.  List of battle scars ~ elbow! no idea how I did that~ calf~ and thighs.  Anyway I think my legs got replaced by tight rubber bands and are threatening to snap with every step I take.  Damn you lactic acid! 

Reality :(

So I had an amazing break filled with family, friend, food, and booze! Complete gluttony! You name it I ate it and enjoyed every bite of pizza, cheesesteak, cake, cookies, and washed it all down with a healthy helping of Pepsi and beer! Yum!

But, now I'm back and dealing with the not so tasty consequences! I stepped on the scale this morning and it was the highest ever! (I'm not quite sure how I got a scale in Kilograms living in Texas, but I managed.) I was a shocking 78.7kg or 173.5lbs! Eeeeek!  So my reasonable goal is to loose 1kg (2.2lbs) a week!

I thought I started off well this morning, went the healthy route of turkey bacon, eggs, and oj! I went to http://www.mypyramidtracker.gov which is a website to track your calories and overall nutritional intake and somehow I reach 700 calories by 1.  Actually now that I am typing it out it's really not that bad considering that I want to get to 1600 calories a day and work the other 500 calories off daily!

Another thing I learned over this break is how important a good bed/pillow is!  A crappy pillow just throws me off of alignment and makes me soar all day! So first stop was to buy new pillows to insure a great night sleep!  I tried all the pillows at target, my boyfriend thought security was going to kick out us, but I got 2 phenomenal cloud like ones that carried me off to dreamland with ease. 

I have to admit this was a pretty decent morning, for the first time in a while I awoke without any neck/back pains! whoo!

Now off to the gym for zumba!